These past weeks have been tough. I have been going through some ups and downs. I’ve been feeling low and upset with God. Not doubting his power but that he would choose to heal me. God can do anything he chooses. His plan for me must be great for he chose to keep me on this earth. I pray that his plan is revealed and the doors will open. I can’t dwell on the past and what could have been; that’s only going to put me down. I have to be strong!
I was watching the news and saw some of the videos from the tornadoes. My prayers go out to all the families and people affected by the disaster. Seeing how fearful and scared the victims were and the struggle they face now really hit deep in my heart. How can I be upset and discouraged with the position I’m in? I’m alive, I have my family and friends and so much love from everyone around me. The people in Oklahoma that were hit by this tornado have NOTHING. Grieving over the lost ones and having to start from scratch. I can’t fathom how that must feel. After watching the reports I looked up to God and gave thanks. I’m blessed more than I can imagine. The support and love I’m shown on a daily basis helps me get through each day. I know I’m going to have rough days like everyone else. I just have to hold on to my faith and the lord with make my path straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6 “trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which past to take”
It’s so simple. It’s all about trust. I think that’s what I’ve been struggling with. This situation is so new to me that I fear the future. But I take comfort in the fact that The Lord Is always with me. I just have to trust in him.
I have started practicing with my leg braces. I have to work at it as much as possible. My arms start to fatigue quickly. I’m so anxious to be able to just stand in my kitchen! It’s going to be such a great feeling. I have been getting into my training for this triathlon in September. I am pumped to compete and excited to see what doors open for me. I ask for continued prayers. I ask everyone to pray for me that I can trust in the Lords plan for me and be at peace knowing God is with me always. That the sensation and muscle comes back to my legs. God Bless and thank you for all the love and prayers!!