Today was a much better day for me than yesterday. I don’t know what caused such depression in my heart yesterday; I guess everyone has his or her good and bad days. One thing I’ve learned from this is experience so far is that you just have to move forward. You’re allowed to get upset and have rough days but tomorrow brings a new day. I spoke with my mom this morning and was a little emotional over the phone with her but she said “Shane lets pray” and so she led the prayer asking God to give me strength, asking him to show me his will, to give me courage and making this day a better one for me. As I’m sitting here writing this tears fill my eyes when I think of how grateful I am for my Mother. Who has sacrificed so much so that I may live a better life. You are truly the greatest Mom in the world. After praying with my mom we said our good byes and I went to my physical therapy. At therapy I worked on the mat moving my legs with what little movement I have so far; Lord I give you the glory for that. It was lunchtime after that than back to therapy where I put on the braces for my legs and used the parallel bars to help me stand and take some steps. Although I cannot feel my legs my hip flexors work and I’m able use them to hike up my leg and swing it forward. My therapy session ended and I didn’t notice but my dad dropped by to give me some necessities since I just got back to Gaylord from Yale after my back surgery. It was great to see my Dad and was an awesome surprise; he was there the entire session and was able to see me walk. After my therapy I went back to my room I was in utter shock hearing about the school shooting that took place today. Sitting in my room praying for the families of the loved ones lost on this horrific day made me stop and think of just how blessed I am even with my situation. There are people out there with a lot worse events and dilemma’s than mine. I have life easy compared to some. I ask that the same prayers that go out to me also go out to the families affected by this event. Today really opened my eyes to a lot of things and made me count my blessings that much more.
I pray daily for God to show me his will. And today he spoke to me in Romans 12:2 “Don’t copy the behaviors and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will know what God wants you to do, and you will know how good and pleasing and perfect his will really is.”
Thank you again for all your love, support and prayers they’re helping my family and I get through this together as one family, God’s family. God Bless you all.